Experience

Today is a bit emotional for me. I am moving on from my job from the past 6 years. I am changing what I use to do for a significant part of my life. I am leaving the team I built and so dependent on. A sense of loss.

My job has come to define a good part of who am I. Director of software development, manage a sizable development team. Smart, capable, experienced, top performer are the attributes that come to mind. Of course the other most important part that define me is my family. A devoted husband, father of two wonderful boys that I love dearly. A good son, a helpful brother, a respectful uncle. That is me.

So, with me moving to a different job, am I a different person? Am I not Victor Tse anymore?

I have a small awakening through this experience. I am not I or other thought I am. Victor Tse is just a label that define the superficial side of me. It is impermanent. There is nothing solid to it. It change from moment to moment. What does this really mean?

Well, since it is just a label, not really a real part of me, there is really no gain or loss with the change. Things are just as it is. Can I bring that title to my grave? Can I bring that to next life? Seeing that, it is a lot easier to accepting changes, especially those that are perceived as negative.